Today marks my last day as a full-time professional. I haven't said anything on the blog yet, partly because that would make it too real and partly because I could never really find the words. For the past few years, I've worked at a small public relations agency in the Twin Cities. To say I have been blessed by my job is an understatement. Working at an agency, I've learned new things each and every day, and looking back, my skills and talents are a far cry from where I was when I started out as an intern so long ago. And frankly - that has been very fulfilling for me.
And while I enjoyed the work, it was my colleagues that made the daily grind even better - they made it something that I looked forward to and I have truly appreciated their consistent encouragement, teaching, advice and friendship. I will miss seeing them each day, sharing weird, office-related dreams, solving client problems, swapping recipes and just living life together.
Growing up, I always believed I would want to be a stay-at-home mom, but I don't think I was quite prepared for how difficult it would be when the time came to make a decision. I think part of that is due to the fact that baby is an "early blessing," but really, I don't think I realized how much I could enjoy and find fulfillment in a job.
It's no secret that I don't do well with change, and adding in a career change to the mix has been another piece of the pie for what has made this pregnancy more emotionally difficult for me. I wrestled with it internally a long time, praying about it and talking it over with Mike (although he always said it was up to me), but deep down, I think I always knew that for me, it wasn't really an option to keep working.
You see, I so badly want to raise my own children and honestly, I just can't fathom another person raising my son the majority of the time. As much as I'm not a "kid-person," I know I will become a "lil'-Wif-person" as soon as I meet my baby boy. I completely know that for some people, staying at home isn't even an option, and I am incredibly blessed to even have a choice in the matter.
Today marks a major chapter in my life closing, but I also know that it doesn't have to be the end of everything professionally-related. As this day has come closer and closer, I've found myself looking forward to the future, not just baby, but what's next for me outside of being a mom and my new identity. While I'm waiting to put any serious thought into what that might look like for me until after the babe's born and I have my new-parent legs under me, I'm beginning to get excited about other places I can invest my talents and skills into.
When I look back to this time last year, Mike and I were still DINKS, gearing up for a long-planned for 2.5 week trip to Europe. We had no idea that just a couple months after we returned, we'd be staring at two little lines - me crying, and he laughing. It's amazing to me where life takes us, no matter how much planning and dreaming we do, life has its own agenda.
So here's to the next adventure, life's unexpected surprises and figuring it out along the way.
All images are snapshots from around my desk.