Holding My Coffee In Both Hands
But like most pregnant ladies in the first trimester, I found myself sleeping in as late as I could until Eli woke up, and even then leaving him in his crib for as long as he was happy until I drug myself out of bed. Now that I'm 17 weeks, for the most part, I'm out of those terribly sleepy days, and while a nap is always welcome, it's no longer required to make it through the day. I find myself waking early once again, waking one, two, even three hours before Eli does. (Lest you think I'm getting up too crazy early, he's been waking around 8 or 9 a.m. for the past two weeks. Also, please don't hate me, as I've often been told, I'm sure I will repay this blessing tenfold with the baby in my belly and you can laugh at me then.)
I get up, shower - well, let's be honest, I shower every three days so I normally sock bun it up - get dressed and head straight to the coffee maker. I find my happy spot on the couch, (True confessions: I have to rotate the cushions quite frequently so it's not too obvious where this happy spot is.) put my feet on the coffee table and settle in. I hold my coffee with both hands, slowly waking up, praying, thinking and being.
Is is just me, or does anyone else find that they are much more patient and productive during the day when they've had a bit of time to themselves? I never realized how much I needed this time until I lost it in that first trimester. I find that because I've had some time alone, I'm more ready to invest and be intentional with Eli throughout the day. I've had time to organize to do list, spend time in this little corner of the internet, and have a quiet time with the Lord while slowly enjoying a cup or two of coffee. I've found I'm so much more patient with little hiccups and setbacks, and I'm not nearly as distracted when Eli wakes and is ready to go.
Two hands on a coffee mug is a small thing, but I'm amazed at what a big difference it makes.
*I actually wrote these thoughts a few days after this post about balancing productivity and laziness - and how "me-time" each day isn't a right, and I realize it may sound like I'm talking out of both sides of my mouth. So I just want to say, while I find it easier to be more intentional and industrious when I have this time, it doesn't give me an excuse to not be patient and productive when I don't get it. It just happens to make choosing my attitude during the day easier. Kapeesh?