After every. single. contraction. (Before the epidural.)
When I think about how wonderful working epidurals are.
In the middle of the night when Colette's crying for the zillionth time for reasons I can't figure out, and I'm just trying to hold it together.
When thinking about how they usually make you wait at least a half hour after you request an epidural before actually give it to you.
After I got the epidural and I couldn't feel anything but pressure.
When wondering why the hospital can't provide better cafeteria food.
When I'm changing Colette's diaper and she's crying because it's cold.
About every sleep-solution book. Ever.
After delivery in the middle of the night, when the nurse wants to come in and check my blood pressure - AGAIN.
When I accidentally forget to support Colette's head and it flops all over the place and I'm hoping no one noticed.
When Colette's bawling in a public place and someone tells me, "Oh, she must be hungry."
When I hear Colette make a noise in the middle of the night and am worried for a second it's going to turn into something more - but it doesn't.
When anyone besides me makes Colette cry. #mommabear