Naps: Two to three naps a day. On a good day: one, two hour in the morning; one two to three hour in the afternoon and a short 1/2 hour in the evening.Feeding: Exclusively breastfeeding. Typically nurses seven times in 24 hour period.
Clothing: Three month bottoms, six month tops.
Bedtime: 6:30 - 7 p.m.
Colic/Reflux Update: We took a bit of a back track this month in the colic/reflux department. The last time I wrote about it, she had been on a really great two week stretch, but this month, I'm not sure what happened. She started waking more in the night, having more evening crying spells and just generally being fussier during the day. It was still nothing compared to how she used to be, but I started having some pretty bad flashbacks when she'd start to rev up at night. It's hard, because part of me thinks it might just be her growing / a wonder week / the four month sleep regression - as any momma knows, the answer to sleep issues and fussiness is never really figured out - so I'm hesitant to say it's for sure colic or reflux, but it seems to fall into that category. One big thing I do notice that's different is she can be calmed down by my presence and if not, then by nursing. Which is a HUGE change.
We are still giving her 1ml of Ranitidine, every 8 hours at 7 a.m., 4 p.m. and 10 p.m. I've heard many parents try to wean their babies off Ranitidine at three months, six months and a year, just to see if the reflux has cleared up. Well, one night Eli threw away Colette's medicine without Mike or I knowing, when it came time for her 10 p.m. dose we tore apart the temp apartment looking for it and couldn't find it. The next day, it dawned on us to check the complex dumpster for the trash we had taken out, so Mike climbed in there and sure enough, there was Colette's little red bottle. All this to say, we had an unintentional weaning around 3.5 months and it did not go well, so we're going to wait until 6 months.
Eating: I've still been trying to work with the same schedule I listed here, but honestly, she's sorta all over the place. I'm fearful my supply is low in the evenings, because for the first three months of her life, she rarely ate from 4 p.m. - Midnight - maybe that's part of why she's fussy? In addition, she's starting to want to nurse at 1 a.m., 3 a.m. and 6 a.m. (ish) and taking a pretty full feed each time, which is pretty frustrating. Often, I'll try to hold her off with the pacifier, but when she wakes/fusses after 15 minutes each time, I know it's just easier to feed her and get some rest, rather than continue to play the pacifier game. I'm still exclusively nursing, but may try supplementing in the evenings, just to see if she'll take it.
Sleeping: One big change this month: I finally dropped the swaddle about halfway through the month! Thanks to all of your recommendations, we switched to the Zip-a-dee-zip. The transition was totally seamless. She had been busting out of the swaddle a few times a night, which always required me to wake her up even more by redoing it, having to re-velcro the thing which is SO LOUD. It's awesome to not have to worry if she's waking because she's out of the swaddle. It's so frustrating when you feel like the waking could have been avoided because of a better system!
But that problem eliminated, Colette is still a bit of a tough sleeper. She almost always takes a great nap in the morning, whether we're out and about and she's in her car seat or if we're home and she's in her bassinet, she usually sleeps the full two hours. But in the afternoon it's a whole different story. She still falls asleep super easily, but sometimes she'll sleep for a half hour and just need the pacifier put in a few times to make it a full two hours, and sometimes there's no way she's going back down, so I just get her up to hang out with me. It's tough to figure out what she needs since she's not on a very consistent schedule - I haven't been nearly as committed to it as I was with Eli. There's just too much going on and with Eli around, well, even with the best intentions, Colette's schedule is a little crazy. As I mentioned above, at night she's all over the place. She goes down around 6:30 or 7 p.m., we wake her at 10 p.m. for a feed and medicine, and then all bets are off as to how the rest of the night will go, but there's usually three to seven wakings in there - and for the record, I don't believe this is because of the zip-a-dee-zip, because this is LESS than when she was swaddled!
For as difficult as Colette can be, she is still just the sweetest little baby. Honestly, she sorta has a split personality. She can be really difficult when the fussiness kicks in in the evening, but most of the time, during the day, she is AMAZING. I get told all the time during the day, "Your baby is amazing! She's so quite and such a great sleeper!" And they're right! In the mornings when I'm out with other people, Colette does awesome in her carseat. But it's hard to know how to respond so I just smile and swallow and nod and RUN. I get what they're saying, but they have NO idea, and I don't want to explain. It's just - complicated.
She's started to smile even more easily this month. I can just look at her from across the room and she'll light up like a Christmas tree. She still has the most amazing belly laugh, and I love how freely and easily it comes. She also loves to talk, coo and squeal, and I'm a little nervous she's going to be a screamer as every once in a while it'll be super high pitched for a loooooong time. She still loves watching her hands and enjoys her play mat, batting and grabbing at the hanging toys and trying to pull them into her mouth, though that skill still needs quite a bit of work. Speaking of mouthing things, that's pretty much her goal in life. When anything gets near her face her big eyes get even bigger and her mouth opens up so wide I think she could swallow me whole - it's clearly her mission to get that thing in her mouth so she can suck and chew on it. She is ZEROED IN, I tell ya.
She's hasn't rolled yet, but is still trying. She really enjoys tummy time, (Except right after she eats, maybe it's the reflux, I think it bothers her stomach and she always spits up a ton.) and often she'll lay there calmly watching Eli for up to 20 minutes. She's just started to be strong enough to sit up in the Bumbo, but only has about five to ten minutes in her before she slumps over. It's fun to have her sit by Eli and I for a few minutes, and Eli drags "Coco's chair" everywhere so she can "play righ' here by Eli."
The biggest thing I've noticed about Colette is that she LOVES attention, but never really asks for it (Except at night - HA!) She's totally content to be a sideshow to Eli, but even if you just look at her she is SO happy. She is seriously the most adorable thing when she's just hanging out and you look over at her, tickle her or just talk with her - her smile is so huge and wonderful it honestly makes up for all the night craziness. She's also a bit of a thrill seeker. She loves to be thrown in the air, or rolled in our arms. With Eli, he would always get this terrified look on his face, but with Colette, it's one of the quickest ways to get a smile out of her. I have a feeling she's going to be a bit of a daredevil - eeek!
She still loves the bath, getting dressed, the carseat and being in the action by sitting in her bouncer or Bumbo. She's not as much of a fan of the pacifier this month, often she'll just roll it around in her mouth looking at me like, "What the heck is this thing?" so we'll see if she drops it soon like Eli did around this time. She is a bit of a Goldilocks, she's all about having things just so. In particular, bottle temperature, not to hot, not to cold, gotta get it just right for that girl to eat it. She also likes her diaper changed on the regular, I have never seen a baby enjoy a fresh diaper as much as her!
This has been a more difficult month again. As usual, I know sleep plays a huge part in my attitude and perspective and it's been hard for me feeling like we've gone a few steps back in the sleeping department. I think the hardest thing is just wanting to "figure her out," but I know it can't be done - so why do I try? I don't know. We move into our permanent house next week and I'm nervous with how another big change (and lots of work with getting settled) will affect her. I think it will be good to have her in her own room, in a crib that's big enough for her (she has pretty much outgrown the travel bassinet!), in a space that I can "regulate" more.
One thing I do notice is how much I can miss her in a day. Often by the time evening comes, even if we've had a rougher day, I just want to hold her and snuggle with her, which is kinda weird if you think about it. It's been so busy with getting the house ready for move-in, and of course, a toddler around, that I just don't have the time with her that I did with Eli. I've found myself wearing her more again just to have her close to me, and I truly do look forward to her feedings (when she takes them calmly) just for the one-on-one time.
Honestly, it's hard not to wish away some of these tough days - and I'm having to make a conscious effort not to. But when she's not fussy, she is just pure sugar. I love her SO much and I have to remember the good moments with her in a day so I don't get too frustrated. I really believe she'll outgrow the fussiness and her true personality is what I see during her more calm hours. And it's honestly, THE BEST. I could just gobble her and her cuteness up when she's calm - I seriously believe God made her extra pretty and adorable just to help me get through the rough nights!